Yesterday I had a call from the “pre-med” nurse. She just asked me a barrage of questions about which medications I take. Currently, I am taking Trelogy and Sertraline. Although i hate taking antidepressants, I have to admit I need them at times. I don’t take them properly and i know most doctors would moan and say, “You have to take them properly.” i don’t want to. I take them as and when i need them, which is usually around my time of the month for a few days or when i can’t deal with my dysfunctional family.
I can experience very dark depressing suicidal days. I always have and I always will.
The nurse explained that after the surgery I will not hear from the surgeon for 6 weeks, and then I will not hear from the cardiologist for 6 months.
They asked if I was scared of needles! This made me scoff. How could I be scared of needles when I’ve been a pin cushion most of my life? I have actually become very desensitized to a lot of things in life. Needles don’t bother me, however, I don’t like it when they take the blood gas. That really hurts, and sometimes you get inexperienced nurses trying to do it who aren’t very good at it. They have to stab you hard to pierce the artery to get the special blood to get your blood gas.
She then went on about getting a “dental review” as your gums have to be in a decent condition before cardiac surgery as any infection that enters the gums can go straight to the heart. I have always had to have an antibiotic an hour before any treatment.
I have the dentist on Friday as I have a cracked tooth. Hopefully its just a small cavity. Sometimes my life just seems like never-ending torture and pain. Torture from the dentist, torture from the hygienist, torture from my mental health, pain from my menstrual cycle. Does it ever end?
She mentioned about whether i had ever had a blood transfusion, which, to my knowledge, i haven’t. I will have to attend the hospital the night before the operation so that they can take blood. She also mentioned something about visitors can’t stay overnight.
I then asked her if i would need to have a catheter, to which she replied “yes”. This scares me. Just the thought of it. I also asked if they could schedule the operation so that it doesn’t coincide with the period, to which she replied, “Probably not”.
Just feels like I have a lot of battles ahead. Sometimes I feel so tired of fighting. It’s exhausting.
sindypiper8 